Ditch the What If’s

What IfI ran along the trail with tears streaming down my face as I thought about taking my oldest son to college the next day and with my sad thoughts, I had a litany of what if’s running through my mind…

What if he gets hurt.

What if he doesn’t go to church.

What if he doesn’t get the last two scholarships we are waiting to hear about.

What if… what if… what if…

I was a mess. I don’t know why my running time has turned into one of my key processing times. If you see me running with an ugly cry face and tears streaming, I apologize in advance. Wouldn’t it be great if we could schedule our grieving, deep thinking moments?

One of my friends texted me in the midst of my what if moment that she was praying for me with this big shift coming the next day. I gave her the first quick answer that came to mind, the same one I gave most people who texted me thoughts and prayers in those days — something along the lines of a simple, “Thank you! I appreciate it so much.” And I meant it. But this time, for some reason after texting her that same reply, it hit me – underneath all those what if’s, was fear.

It was eye-opening to me after many teary moments over the months leading up to and following his graduation and again as the move in date for college approached, that in the midst of the grief of letting go, fear had taken up residence in my heart.

All of those what if’s were possible worst case scenarios scrolling through my mind. They were places I wasn’t completely trusting Jesus with my son. As I texted this trusted friend for a second time, I said, ” I think I’m scared.” And then I shared some of my what if thoughts. Having been through releasing kids after High School a few times herself, she responded back with words of wisdom and a reminder to trust God with my son. Immediately after realizing and texting my fears to her, I felt better. Relief flooded my heart and my tears dried up.

I’ve heard Joyce Meyer say, “When you think about something to the point it causes fear or confusion – you’ve thought about it too far.” That’s so true. I’d thought about it all beyond the point of trusting God with all areas of my son’s life. There are no what if’s when it comes to trusting Him. He has it all, every detail, every concern, every possible scenario that can unfold, in the palm of His hand. If you are struggling with what if thoughts today, I hope you will pause and remember – God’s got it! You can trust Him to see you and all those your thoughts pertain to, through to the end.

Let’s pray – Father God, I think you for your faithfulness to watch over and protect us and those we love. You are good and your love endures forever. Today and every day, may I live with my eyes fixed on you, my hope anchored in you, and my trust in you and you alone to keep all that pertains to me safe in your arms. Quiet every fear. Calm every stormy thought. Peace, be still. In Jesus name, Amen.

Verses for Reflection:

When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. Psalm 56:3

The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. Psalm 28:7


1 Comment

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